56.

even though i feel fine about what's happened
it doesn't make it any more pleasant
to have someone hate your guts
and not being able to do a damn thing about it.
and what's worse,
i never got to thank you.
i guess i never will.

55.

only when the world
comes into to me
do the genes come to life.



?

54.

peanut butter brains:
conscious thought is so difficult when your thoughts are too difficult to handle in conscious thought so it goes to subconscious thought. i get so spacey and just zone out so my subconscious can work.
almost frustrating.
but i know when i'm done i'll have some good material to work with.
figuring out free will better be worth it,
because my english and concentration is GARBAGE.

53.

[don't worry, dear. its not blood.]




pulse
pulse
pulse
pulse
pulsepulsepulsepulse [wait. hover.]
pulse pulse pulse pulse
bass puuuuuulse drums -wait-
pulse
pulse
pulse
pulse
pulsepulsepulsepulse [wait. recover.]
pulse pulse pulse pulse
bass puuuuuulse drums -stop-

52.

[GENETIC CANNIBALISM]


did you know that you share 60%
of your genetic make up with a banana?
so technically, on a genetic level,
we are 60% banana.
and the even bigger mind fuck:
we EAT bananas.
so when we are eating a banana
60% of that banana
[genetically]
is us.
That's genetic cannibalism
if I ever saw it.

wtf?!?!

51.

[paranoia]


generate eradicate investigate
religion
so close to god that the blinding lights
have melted and sealed your fate with wax
it is the inevitable
it is the horror of the ignorant blood of man
we only know as much as we let ourselves
see.

50.

I'm sorry to say
I had a feeling this would happen.
Its just unfortunate that it happened now,
just as everything in me has come to a balance,
your world has fallen apart
and you are no longer here to listen to my appreciation.
you helped me a lot more
than you realize you have
and I'm sorry you left before I could say
thank you.